Well,

I have never had a blog type thing before. I really don’t know where to start, who will read this (if anyone will read it that is), or what will happen in the coming months. All I do know is that I need to make a change in my life. I have struggled with my weight for years, and you would think the closer I crept towards my mid-20s and exited my teens my self-consciousness and body image issues wouldn’t be so bad… problem is they seem to be getting worse. I haven’t lived an overly sedinatry lifestyle, but neither have I done all that I can to exercise in a daily routine. For the past two weeks, I have committed to walking at least 30 minutes or more for at least 4-5 days a week. Problem is, what to do next? I need to tone, strength train, and lose weight… not just get active. My caloric intake varies, but never increases more than 1000 a day. Some days its way below that. One day, I wrote down everything I ate, the calorie and fat content and was shocked to see that my calories at the end of the day total 740 and my fat 28 grams. I have a tendency to skip meals, breakfast and lunch, and eat a small supper. You would think this would make me as thin as a rail, however it seems to be the opposite. My metabolism is at a standstill and I am tired with no real energy to burn. I have this unhealthy relationship with food. Not that I’m overeating, but that I’m undereating. The minor hunger pains I block from my mind, thinking that ‘Oh, well you surely won’t starve’. And no, while I surely won’t starve, I am surely not doing any good to my body doing this. It’s not all about the physical, outward for me… it’s about wanting to live and lead a healthy, active, fit lifestyle that is COMPLETE with wise and healthy eating habits. This journey is a scary one, and if anyone is out there reading this, who knows how to help, who has been in the same situation, knows what to do… please please please… HELP!
-Peace